My Late memories

It have been 3 years since she passed away with dignity. I was there again, at Hari Raya eve this year, I went to her cemetry with my parents to visit her and renew the flowers. I could not bear it. When my mother speak of her that she is in heaven and would protect us in doing things, tears soaked up my eyes and wet my cheeks.
I remember when I was young, about 2 years old, I was very weak and I am very easy to catch sickness. My parents were busy on working so I was sent to my grandmother. She babysitted me for a long time before I am with my own. I am her eldest grandson and I obey her very much as she never do things to harm me.
As years pass by, one day when I was back, I saw her walking with a stick. I got worried and asked my uncle and aunties that were supposed to have regular check for her about her health. I know that she had cancer when they told me, but she insisted it was only minor old diseases, and told me not to worry about her. I cannot do anything to help her, but just seeing her with her pain and sickness worsen from day to day.
Until the day cancer cells spread towards her whole body, she could not even hear me talking when lying on the hospital bed after some crucial treatments. I don't want her to suffer anymore. BUT THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO! I know her cancer cannot be cured anymore after that.......
Alas, I cannot see her anymore from where I am now. We have been seperated by two different world we are in. She died on January 1st 2005, which I will never forget her, and I regret that I can never say that "I love you" to her anymore. She will always be my grandmother that I treasure. Even though thats just such short time we have been together with, but, it is my memories..... If I can say once more, I would let her know that, I am proud to have her as my grandmother, as always......
I had made up my mind. Since the day she left the world, I will be a doctor and ease cancer pain if cannot totally cure cancer. Even though it might be a dream, but.... but I will try hard and my best to fulfill it. I don't want anyone to suffer from this sickness again......