The Cruel Battle

Why did I mention PMR as cruel battle? In Malaysia, PMR stands for "Penilaian Menengah Rendah" and is one of the major examination taken by all form 3 students across Malaysia... Because of this examination, most of us did our best on it, but for these 3 years, everyone is working hard to archieve best results, of course, it goes the same to me. Well, PMR goes for 5 days and it really creeps me out.... not to say I hate PMR, but, this examination made me take a lot of time in my preparations and, in fact, everyone in form 3 is. This, I concidered as a battle because, we are the one who are facing it. I made a mistake for not concentrating on my studies last time, but, I promised myself to catch up with them in form 4, with my best friend too. And, before I end this, I would like to tell every reader for this post, please do not ignore studies, it ends badly....

My Late memories

It have been 3 years since she passed away with dignity. I was there again, at Hari Raya eve this year, I went to her cemetry with my parents to visit her and renew the flowers. I could not bear it. When my mother speak of her that she is in heaven and would protect us in doing things, tears soaked up my eyes and wet my cheeks.
I remember when I was young, about 2 years old, I was very weak and I am very easy to catch sickness. My parents were busy on working so I was sent to my grandmother. She babysitted me for a long time before I am with my own. I am her eldest grandson and I obey her very much as she never do things to harm me.
As years pass by, one day when I was back, I saw her walking with a stick. I got worried and asked my uncle and aunties that were supposed to have regular check for her about her health. I know that she had cancer when they told me, but she insisted it was only minor old diseases, and told me not to worry about her. I cannot do anything to help her, but just seeing her with her pain and sickness worsen from day to day.
Until the day cancer cells spread towards her whole body, she could not even hear me talking when lying on the hospital bed after some crucial treatments. I don't want her to suffer anymore. BUT THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO! I know her cancer cannot be cured anymore after that.......
Alas, I cannot see her anymore from where I am now. We have been seperated by two different world we are in. She died on January 1st 2005, which I will never forget her, and I regret that I can never say that "I love you" to her anymore. She will always be my grandmother that I treasure. Even though thats just such short time we have been together with, but, it is my memories..... If I can say once more, I would let her know that, I am proud to have her as my grandmother, as always......
I had made up my mind. Since the day she left the world, I will be a doctor and ease cancer pain if cannot totally cure cancer. Even though it might be a dream, but.... but I will try hard and my best to fulfill it. I don't want anyone to suffer from this sickness again......

Just 3 WORDS

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -

1. Time 2. Words 3. Opportunity

Three things in life that can destroy a person -

1. Anger 2. Pride 3. Unforgiveness

Three things in life that you should never lose -

1. Hope 2. Peace 3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -

1. Love 2. Family & Friends 3. Kindness

Three things in life that are never certain -

1. Fortune 2. Success 3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -

1. Commitment 2. Sincerity 3. Hard work

Three things that are truly constant -

Father - Son - Holy Spirit

Feel, Friend~

I remembered that you say,
Something is bothering you.
You can tell me if you want to, I don't mind it, actually.
I feel weird and someting is not right.
I don't think it has ended.
I keep thinking, thinking of, if I had done something wrong?
I asked myself before I speak, I told you my true words.
I want to know what you desire, which may not be comfortable for you.
I want to change myself to someone which is better.
I want to change you to someone accepted by all.
I want friends beside me whenever I needed them.
I want you to be my friend, which cheer and makes me happy;
I want to treat you the same, which I am trying my best.
I want you to know me better;
As I am doing the same you do.
I want you to keep the promises we made, earlier.
We chased our dream together
These words, from me, are nothing to be afraid of, they're just my thoughts and feelings.
I want you to understand,
that A friend in need is a friend indeed.

From :
Chong Zheng Men 18 September 2008

To :
My buddy, Marcus
Though we may quarrel :)